Between My Reads is a feature that appears on here sporadically. As I’m sure you might have guessed by now, I’m passionate about books. However, they are not the be all and end all of my life so I thought it might be fun to share some other stuff now again here too. If this doesn’t interest you, don’t worry books will be back on the agenda tomorrow.
I love music, I love how a piece of music can make a connection to your heart and have the power to immediately change your mood. When I’m exercising, when an upbeat song I love comes on, I find I can always push myself harder and I just feel stronger. When I’m sad, I have been known to wallow with sad music but at least it allows me to release those emotions. And certain songs always remind of certain memories.
So yes, I love music and I fully believe in the restorative powers of music. However I have one song that has often played just when I needed it most. It’s Fix You by Coldplay and it’s a song that is sad but I also find it calming and hopeful.
The first time I became aware that this song was special to me was about 8 years ago, when I heard it on the radio, on the way home from a meeting in the Infertility Clinic that I had been attending. It hadn’t gone well and I felt lost and this line just about broke my heart:
“when you try your best, but you don’t succeed”.
Tell me about it, I was thinking to myself. I was stressed, worn out and on the edge of breaking. So again these lines had me thinking, that’s me.
“When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace.”
But just my tears were starting to really flow too, the next few lines were what I needed to hear in that moment and soothed my broken soul.
“Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you”
They were so reassuring and reminded me that I had people who were there for me, that I had a home that was a haven and I that would fix. And I suddenly felt that I was strong enough to cope with whatever my uncertain future was regarding having a family.
And that wasn’t the only time that I’ve heard that song randomly at a precise moment when I needed it. It happens all the time. Another specific time I can remember is when I was walking on a beach and feeling very unsure about the direction my life was heading in. I had my music on shuffle and it played. Instantly it flooded my memories with how I felt that day and reminded me that I got through that. That I was strong and that even if the worst happens, that I can survive and go on and that things get brighter.
And now it’s a song that doesn’t feel sad to me. It’s a song that just inspires me, soothes me and fills me with hope. It reminds me that no matter how much we might struggle in a moment that the people you love are there and they have the power to fix you.
Talk to Trish: Do you have a random song that you keep hearing and that just resonates with you? What is it?