Falling Into You is heartbreaking story of love and loss. If you have ever lost someone close to you as a result of an untimely death then the emotions in this book will hit you in the gut. Hard. And will leave you feeling raw and sore but will also instill hope about the healing power of love.
Series: Falling #1
Published by Jasinda Wilder on 14 Mar 2013
Genres: New Adult
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I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.
Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn't teach me how to live. He didn't heal the pain. He didn't make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go
When we first see Nell she is an innocent, sixteen year old. Her relationship with Kyle moves from best friend to boyfriend almost seamlessly. For two years, they have comfortable but still exciting and fulfilling relationship. Unfortunately, we know from the synopsis that there will be no happy ever after here as we know Kyle dies. Afterwards, Nell is left confused and guilty and the only person who can help her heal is Kyle’s older brother Colton.
I loved Nell from early on in the book; she is growing up, innocently experiencing her first love and is excited and scared by all that entails. For some reason I didn’t take to Kyle as much. Maybe I was just protecting myself as I knew what was going to happen. However the incidents before his death made me think that this couple would probably have drifted away as they went to college and matured.
This would be a fairly common scenario for a first serious relationship and while it would still hurt, it’s normal and nearly a rite of passage. But to have your first boyfriend die is a whole new level of hurt. And Falling into You does a great job of exposing all those mixed up feelings that go along with death. Confusion, guilt, anger, betrayal, denial, we feel them all along with Nell and suffer through them along with her too.
I wasn’t expecting the book to change point of view to Colton however it was a great change of pace and shook me up all over again. Colton is deep and complex. He has his own struggles and wars to fight but he is a survivor and the perfect person to help Nell. In his own words
‘I think we’ve both had our share of people trying to fix us. It doesn’t work. We can only fix ourselves. Let ourselves heal.’
He has healed his own hurts though music and writing and as always music references and song writing references turn me into a quivering mess. Actually most of this book, had me trembling as I got sucked up in poignant emotion after poignant emotion. I can’t reveal more for fear of spoilers but what happened near the end of the book was very personal for me and a song written by Colton about it was perfect. That print-it-out-and-keep-it-somewhere-special kind of perfect.
As you can tell the book is distressing at times however at others times, it is full of life and fun. Nell and Kyle’s relationship is sweet and happy. Nell and Colton’s relationship is a more mature relationship, edgier and there are lots of fun moments between them. The book is very graphic in places so if this is something you don’t like beware.
Who should read Falling into You?
Overall this is book I’m delighted I read even if it did make me cry. Why do I insist on breaking my heart over and over by books? No idea! For some reason I enjoy it. If you are a sucker for these heartbreaking NA books like I am, then this is another must-read for your list.
And what should you listen to while reading?
I read this book as it was recommended to me by Chelsea@ Starbucks and Books Obsession who chooses iPod picks at the end of her reviews. As a nod to Chelsea and a thank you for the recommendation; I’m picking a song that I think matches this book perfectly.
Killing me Softly with His Song by the Fugees